One year later -

One year ago today I graduated from Mercy Ministries in St. Louis, MO.

Today marks one year of redemption, undeniable blessing, countless temptations, remarkable beauty, adventure, and grace. I have walked through fire, danced in the water, bathed in relationships, and continue to stand open when it comes to learning and understanding myself and others. I am not perfect, I am no better than anyone else, and I will continue to live a life of purpose in a way that Christ shines through me.

For a moment I want to thank Nancy Alcorn, Mercy Ministries Staff, and ALL supporters! Without the selflessness, and unconditional love given by all... Mercy Ministries wouldn't be able to guide, teach, and see countless young women set free from their past! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Hold me [someone]

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't struggling. The last few weeks have been full of bad news, stress, and all sorts of emotion.
I've been putting on a front, hoping people won't notice that I'm not doing well, yet my attitude and temper express a heck of a lot more than I want. Go figure.

I take one day at a time, and hope for the best. I need to cry, but I still feel it's weak. In this vulnerable state I also just want someone to hold me, and tell me it's going to be okay, but I refuse to let anyone so close.

Last night I was in bed, my thoughts running crazy, and with my hands pressed against my face I said, "God, Help me." I haven't felt this helpless in a long time.

I can't wait to get through this tunnel. Right now, it's pitch black and I'm wandering about running into every obstacle.



...take me to a happy place...