TRUE CHAMPIONS IN LIFE ARE ALL THE SAME...
-STRUGGLE
-PAIN
-HURT
-HEARTACHE
...AND WE OVERCOME THOSE OBSTACLES.
NO TRUE CHAMPION EVER HAD IT EASY!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
I picture myself screaming sometimes into the wind out of desperation. My heart tends to beat faster, and my words become few. I feel overwhelmed with emotion but tears don't come. I pray, seek, read my Bible, and journal; temptations are still evident. For this life to be easy is impossible. For hatred, disgust, and murder to never exist; also impossible.
I am blessed beyond anything I could've imagined, but I feel as though I'm pushing with all my strength against a brick wall.
Behind closed doors the ticking of the present quickly becomes past and future possibilities remain a mystery. Digging deeper, more subtle through the layers to the core of "why" and "how" consists of unmistakable pain. However, to stand tall one must complete the battle; beaten and bloody... I will complete this battle.
Isaiah 40:31 NIV
"...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
I am blessed beyond anything I could've imagined, but I feel as though I'm pushing with all my strength against a brick wall.
Behind closed doors the ticking of the present quickly becomes past and future possibilities remain a mystery. Digging deeper, more subtle through the layers to the core of "why" and "how" consists of unmistakable pain. However, to stand tall one must complete the battle; beaten and bloody... I will complete this battle.
Isaiah 40:31 NIV
"...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
Sunday, January 9, 2011
May 3, 2010 [journal entry]
"This morning I was driving to work and while I was stopped at a major intersection I looked to my left and standing on the brick sidewalk I saw a man holding a sign (which is far from uncommon at this particular spot). Though I saw the man, he wasn't alone. I began to see other people with him- children, elderly, mothers, fathers... they were all holding signs but I was unable to read them. It was almost like the line of people quickly became endless. I could see them screaming through the emptiness in their eyes. Were they victims of a broken heart, jobless, abuse, sex trafficking, addictions, molestation, rape, insecurity, judgement? Were some of them lost in religion, murderers, mentally ill, suicidal, adulterers, homeless, suffering from cancer, aids, malaria, food poisoning, malnutrition, neglect, hatred, lonliness? I don't know... was there a mother that aborted her baby... I don't know.
Have you stepped into someone elses shoes lately? Have you thought about why your daughter lies to you? Have you questioned your sons mysterious behavior? What about your sister, brother, aunt, grandpa, or friend? Have you got your eyes off yourself lately to see if there's a reason why different things are happening in your relationships?
There's a stanger out there with a story to tell. Maybe it's time for us to read the "signs.""
Have you stepped into someone elses shoes lately? Have you thought about why your daughter lies to you? Have you questioned your sons mysterious behavior? What about your sister, brother, aunt, grandpa, or friend? Have you got your eyes off yourself lately to see if there's a reason why different things are happening in your relationships?
There's a stanger out there with a story to tell. Maybe it's time for us to read the "signs.""
God knows
I wanted to take a moment and share my new favorite scripture:
God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. Hebrews 6:10
At times in my journey with Christ I feel like I'm not doing anything for anyone. BUT what about the people I have helped even with the smallest, "hi," or biggest grin. The little acts of kindness are just as powerful in the eyes of God.
Don't doubt the impact you are capable of having in someone's life. Even if you never know, God does, and he will honor you for it.
God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. Hebrews 6:10
At times in my journey with Christ I feel like I'm not doing anything for anyone. BUT what about the people I have helped even with the smallest, "hi," or biggest grin. The little acts of kindness are just as powerful in the eyes of God.
Don't doubt the impact you are capable of having in someone's life. Even if you never know, God does, and he will honor you for it.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
With this new year beginning one thing I am going to strive to do is keep my dreams alive. God has placed some specific things in my heart that I want to see flourish into something spectacular. I'm not much for resolutions, but I know there are some personal things I am going to be working on as well.
Now it's time for me to be the dreaded 'V' word- VULNERABLE.
I am insecure when it comes to my appearance, as most women are. We pull off our insecurity most times pretty well, but the truth comes out when we're staring in a mirror or alone behind closed doors. Something I remind myself everyday is that God says I am beautiful. I shouldn't place my outward looks on whether someone is going to like me because that gets me nowhere. Obviously there are healthy changes I can make to feel less insecure and more accepting of my appearance, but ultimately all that matters is that God says I am beautiful from the inside out.
I get lonely. I have friends, co-workers, my family, but often times I wonder what I'm missing, and when lonliness creeps in so do temptations. So, what do I do? Well, the answer is simple, a more intimate relationship with God. Life can become very busy, my Bible will collect dust, my journal will keep empty pages, and my musical taste will lose its flavor. I begin to notice I'm tired more quickly, grouchy, lacking sleep, and then realize I put myself in that position. We choose how we're going to spend our days. Options are given to us everyday and whether we realize it or not we're mapping out our future with every action we take, word we speak, and people we spend time with. God should be our number one priority. I've learned he'll fill the emptiness, I just have to allow him.
What do you need to work on?
Until next time,
Now it's time for me to be the dreaded 'V' word- VULNERABLE.
I am insecure when it comes to my appearance, as most women are. We pull off our insecurity most times pretty well, but the truth comes out when we're staring in a mirror or alone behind closed doors. Something I remind myself everyday is that God says I am beautiful. I shouldn't place my outward looks on whether someone is going to like me because that gets me nowhere. Obviously there are healthy changes I can make to feel less insecure and more accepting of my appearance, but ultimately all that matters is that God says I am beautiful from the inside out.
I get lonely. I have friends, co-workers, my family, but often times I wonder what I'm missing, and when lonliness creeps in so do temptations. So, what do I do? Well, the answer is simple, a more intimate relationship with God. Life can become very busy, my Bible will collect dust, my journal will keep empty pages, and my musical taste will lose its flavor. I begin to notice I'm tired more quickly, grouchy, lacking sleep, and then realize I put myself in that position. We choose how we're going to spend our days. Options are given to us everyday and whether we realize it or not we're mapping out our future with every action we take, word we speak, and people we spend time with. God should be our number one priority. I've learned he'll fill the emptiness, I just have to allow him.
What do you need to work on?
Until next time,
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