Psalm 30

God brought the below chapter in Psalm to my heart when I was driving to the chiropractor this afternoon. I kept repeating it in my head so I'd remember to look it up, but in the process of hurrying home, getting gas before my car stalled, run in the house put on more deodorant, run out, and jump in my dad's truck so we could head to our movie date... I forgot.

Now that I'm home my memory of the scripture, from 4.5 hrs ago, has awakened again, and it reads:


Psalm 30 [NIV]

1 I will exalt you, O LORD,
for you lifted me out of the depths
and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

2 O LORD my God, I called to you for help
and you healed me.


3 O LORD, you brought me up from the grave [b] ;
you spared me from going down into the pit.


4 Sing to the LORD, you saints of his;
praise his holy name.


5 For his anger lasts only a moment,
but his favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning.

6 When I felt secure, I said,
"I will never be shaken."


7 O LORD, when you favored me,
you made my mountain stand firm;
but when you hid your face,
I was dismayed.


8 To you, O LORD, I called;
to the Lord I cried for mercy:


9 "What gain is there in my destruction,
in my going down into the pit?
Will the dust praise you?
Will it proclaim your faithfulness?


10 Hear, O LORD, and be merciful to me;
O LORD, be my help."


11 You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
12 that my heart may sing to you and not be silent.
O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.


God has been "showing up" and "showing off" in my life this week... through work, personal affairs, friends, and family. The above scriptures speak firmly into the situations facing me lately, and also ignites the passion in me of the prophecy spoken over my life last May while I was at Mercy.

God pulled me out of the pit and has completely redeemed my life. I live for Him, and him alone. I sacrifice my life for the call He's placed on it, and if that means being rejected, tormented, or killed... Those around me will know that my life was well lived because I lived it whole-heartedly for my Savior, Lover, Father, and Best Friend Jesus Christ.

 

I'm presently addicted to this song. Right now it explains my outlook on many things, and I'm ok with that.

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven but I talked the whole time I think I made You too small, I never feared You at all, no
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes, could I behold You?

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of holy of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name on earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?


[Addison Road__What Do I Know of Holy?]

Kirk Franklin & Da TRUTH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=05lddfyhf3s&feature=player_embedded

I'm existing.

I have no plan for the fall, my friends are few, and I feel alone and I hate to say... vulnerable. It'd be different if I was content during all this but that's not the case. Where I am right now is a scary place to be. A place when God can just say, "Hey.. go here and do this," without warning or question. I have no control. We, as humans, love to have control over situations in some way, shape, or form. It's part of who we are but if we're trying to have control over what we should be giving God... that's a problem and will leave us stranded.

I surrender all I am to Christ on a daily bases. I've laid down my life to live set apart from this world. I've committed every fiber of my being to the plan and call God has placed on and in my life. I have to place my trust and faith in him. I have to "be still" and know that he is God without a doubt and has everything and I mean everything under control.

Until the plans are unveiled I'll keep reminding myself, "in his perfect timing."

it only takes one to change the world.

Fear grips the lives and hearts of the people in Kosovo; the need to survive is great. 97% of the population is Muslim and the thirst and hunger for the true word of God is far more than we could ever imagine. Above ground graves are a constant reminder of the many deaths from the war that tore through this beautiful country. People walk from village to village/town to town their heads hanging low and their facial expressions grim. Young children, most under the age of 5, are sent by their mothers to beg for money and food. Some hold signs, others look straight into your eyes and as your heart shatters, saying "no" while choking back tears of guilt, brings you to a place of silence. Driving through the town and to near by villages homes are unfinished, some have visible marks from gun shots, and others are used to keep hay, dry clothes, or are vacant. 50% of the Kosovo population are without jobs and the cost of different items is very cheap. I bought lunch for myself and 2 other girls at one point and the total amount was 8euros, which is less than $7 in the USA. Less than $7 for 3 people to eat and here in the USA sometimes one person pays around $10 for food.

KERCE [JUMP] was the kids event we held Tuesday-Thursday near a village about 20min from the town we stayed in. On the first day I had no idea what to expect and as we drove up I saw a few kids wandering about. I was looking around at the inside of the school Service International [the group I was with] built for these children as well as talking to another group member and I mentioned how not very many kids were not at KERCE yet. She said something to me, I walked to the 2nd story classroom window, and below I was captivated by hundreds of children from all ages standing in lines almost completely silent because they were so anxious/excited to be at KERCE 2010. Seeing all the children moved me in a way I will never forget and will forever be engraved on my heart.
Throughout the week there were countless salvations, relationships formed, and without a doubt more children/families know about Jesus Christ and his love for them.

I am forever changed.