My eyes are bloodshot and burning from tear stained mascara and in the background Jeremy Camp now plays. I sit disappointed and as "God, I'm sorry" released from my lips, I began to weep. I sent out a text to two solid women of God asking for prayer, and parts of me scream, "Don't even ask, they don't care!"
However, I know different.

I must remember that I have come so far from who I used to be. I must remember God has a plan for me. I must remember His unconditional love and mercy. I must not forget that God forgives.

God, thank you for not letting go of my hand. Thank you for carrying me when I need it. Thank you for surrounding me with your peace. God, fill me up to empty me again... revive me.

Jesus you have carried me
When I could not stand
Jesus you have carried me
It's all been part of your plan


Jesus you have carried me
It's your footprints in the sand
Jesus you have carried me
It was always in your hands

Carried Me - Jeremy Camp